Mark, Jennifer, Ethan, Emily

This blog is about our family, who have dealt with the loss of two sons with Muscular Dystrophy, the adoption of a son diagnosed with Agenesis of Corpus Callosum and the birth our a healthy little girl. It's a crazy life, but we are loving it.

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

An Actual Blog Post?

For the ones and ones of people who actually read this little blog, I apologize.

I didn't mean to take a year and half pause from blogging. It just happened.

I enjoyed doing this blog... at first.

Then it became kind of a dread.

Let me explain. I love reading other blogs. A lot. They inspired me to start this one. I find great recipes, craft ideas or just keep up with the families there.

I not only took a blogging break, I took a timeout from reading other blogs as well. And Facebook.

People on Facebook seemed to put up only their drama, gripes, complaints or the exact opposite, they would post on why their kids and their family are the greatest and just the bees knees. You know, honor roll, vacation in the Caribbean, etc.

And if I'm going to be honest, I must tell you I think I was in sort of the dumps, down, sadness when I stopped this blog.

I know people want to put their best out there. I would be proud too of my honor roll student and my fancy vay-cay. But I just wasn't in a happy mood for a while. I do not want to say I was depressed. I believe that is a serious diagnosis. I was just sad due to my circumstances.

While I'm being honest, I'll tell you that money was seriously tight and Ethan's behavior made me want to drink and cuss. I didn't. OK, I might have let a few choice words out a few times.

So as you can see, I think I had a legit reason to take a blogging break. I could get on here and tell you all the super fun things we did as a family and how everything was just peachy, but I'd be a liar. I don't want to lie to my ones and ones of readers!

So here goes nothing. A doctor finally listened to what I had to say about Ethan's behavior. Ethan is now on some meds that help him with his nasty mood. I don't want to get into a discussion about children and medications. It wasn't a decision I made lightly. But let me tell you, I have received more "I love you" and hugs from this child in the past year than in the first 10 years of his life.

Ethan actually sings, tells jokes and belly laughs at  funny things. He stepped on my foot the other day and he said "I'm sorry". On purpose. I didn't have to make him say it or anything. He seems genuine and not emotionally disconnected. There's not a perpetual grumpy cloud over him all the time.

But he's still a kid. He's not a saint, a saint he ain't! He still gets into trouble and can be defiant and disrespectful. He's a 12 year old boy.

But God has also shown to me over and over again during this break that He is sovereign over all. He created Ethan they way he is for a purpose and placed him in this family for a purpose. Period. I will rest that. Period.

So when I decided to blog again, I wondered. What is this blog about? A family with a child with ACC? A family who has lost to baby boys with MD? A craft blog? Cookie blog? Cooking blog? Well, it's my blog and my blog will be all of those things. I hope you enjoy.

If you read all of this, then bless your heart!

I have so many things I would like to share with you from the last year or so, but in due time.

I will leave you with a recent picture from Thanksgiving.

And if your a bragger on Facebook, good for you! But save the drama for your mamma!